Harry, only you can answer what motivates you -- but I believe what Anne Frank once said: "People are basically good at heart."

This is the same Anne Frank who died in the Holocaust.

You are a good person. G-d made us basically good with an inclination to evil. There are all kinds of outside influences that sway us to evil -- in the case of your friend he grew up without much love, and much abuse. Evil. But the good is still always there, waiting.

It is like a weed that manages to somehow sprout in the middle of a New York city sidewalk. Life. Hope. Love.

This is why the whole world was created. Acts of kindness. Acts of love.

Not quite sure what any of this has to do with G-d not being a part of time, but perhaps there is some link in your mind?
And everything that Sarah tells you, listen to her voice. Genesis, 21:12